took a day dedicated to me, no real emotion needed but just a break from the constant thought of what everyone else wants. i love them all but the things that are right for everyone else are not always right for me. the things and the choices that i need to make are evident. i need to make myself happy. until then i cant truly make anyone else happy. i miss church, my family, and my friends. this is the hardest thing i have every had to deal with in my life. to face my fears of actually being alone. no one to really turn too. i had my sister of course but that isn’t enough when i am used to having my whole entire family. the moves that i make are for myself as well as my daughter. moving out here really opened my eyes to a lot of things. this is exactly what i needed. now i am ready to return home and start my life for my daughter and myself. 

the craziest things happen to the most sane people. thank you lord.